What I Know Now

Voices of Addiction – Now Voices of Recovery

“What I know now is that addiction is a disease. I’m not an inherently bad person. I have always known the difference between right and wrong, but when I was drowning in addiction, I couldn’t see past my next high. I hurt a lot of people along the way, myself included, but drugs were all that mattered. I know now that it’s okay to ask for help, and there are people that want to help. The epidemic is growing stronger. But I know now that despite the statistics, there are people out there recovering. People are getting clean and staying clean; it is absolutely possible. No one has to do this alone.” –Julie Funkhouser

“What I know now is I should have addressed my addiction to drugs and alcohol at a much younger age”.

As a 56 year old recovering addict, I now look back on my life and realize how much this horrible disease has taken away from me.  Not only did I lose a countless number of material things, such as jobs, homes, cars and money, but more importantly, I lost my integrity and self-respect.  Add to this all the many family and friends that I used and hurt along the way, and I can honestly say that I wish that I could return back to my younger self, and knock some sense into him.

And although God has restored my life, and my future looks bright, my past still haunts me at times.  I sometimes think about all of the time and energy that I wasted, only to chase after something that was never enough.  How sad.

So my word to the young is to deal with your addiction NOW.  Don’t wait till you’re older like me, and have to come to terms with the question, “What if…” -Pastor Brad Hill

“What I know now is I cannot stay clean and sober on my own.  Addiction is a disease of isolation.  It wants me alone and dead.  It will continue to tell me I can stay clean by myself.  We do recover”.

I can only keep what I have by giving it away i.e. helping other addicts, sharing my experience, strength and hope.

I am an addict. I am not ashamed. I do not suffer from a moral failing. I tend to make poor decisions while in active addiction due to a miscalibrated moral compass.

My character defects have been around even before picking up that first drink or drug.  I made impulsive, careless and, poor decisions from an early start.  Now by doing the next right thing I am that much further from picking up.  I also remember I am one beer away from a crack hit.” –Kim Shupe

“What I know now is that it is okay to ask for help.  I understand today that my addiction is a disease and not some sort of moral deficiency.  My recovery is a lifelong process.  I am beyond grateful for the opportunity that I am given each and every day to recover.” –Meredith Spier

What I know now is I’m no better or worse than anyone else.  That addiction doesn’t discriminate. What I know now is that my way of life never worked, and I always ran my life into the ground.  That as a man, it is okay to ask for help.  It is okay to sometimes not to know what to do.  What I know now is that I could have found peace a long time ago, but I am so grateful that I found peace now.  What I know now is that being okay with yourself, in your shortcomings and your flaws is something to be proud of.” –Matthew Fanning

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